2009 in Retrospect
I sit and think how about a year ago I was on Aftershock and sitting around my house depressed and teary eyed fresh off of a DUI charge and considering quitting paintball. I was considering quitting because my life was legally and financially upside down, and I was getting sick and tired of the same old run around. I was pouring my heart, soul and bank account into being the best player that I could be, but I was consistently packing my shit early and watching Sunday from the bleachers. Several seasons of that same old monotonous trend will snuff out the flame to compete and the passionate pursuit of greatness real fast.


Then I started thinking about sitting all of my brothers down at an Applebee’s after a random off season reunion style grind session. At that point we all represented about 3 or 4 teams collectively. I remember telling them all that we had an opportunity to all play Pro together in this new 7 man league. I prefaced all of them with the fact that it was going to be the roughest season of their lives between lack of industry support, haters galore and the fact that we were building a brand new pro team with about 60 days to secure all sponsorship and practice. I asked who all was in and not one of them hesitated.

I think about those 60 days we had to get our shit together. I can recall a stress and pressure level like I’ve never felt in my life. Everyday that I woke up and looked in the mirror, I knew that some how some way we had to find the money for this team to exist. I couldn’t stand the thought of making a mockery of myself or any of my teammates when they all went crawling back to the teams they quit to play for Mutiny if we didn’t secure sponsorship ASAP.
I remember shaking in my boots from monster sized butterflies before our first game ever as a team in HB. I also remember the incredible level of embarrassment and anger I felt after my parents showed up to that event (first time ever) to surprise and support me. I remember putting my shades on and a hoody after the prelims, and walking out in the parking lot by myself to cry my eyes out because I poured my entire existence into the team. And what I got out of it: an event where my gun worked about 25% of the time I played, a sickening performance on our virgin run in front of the entire paintball world as well as my parents, and a mean ass wake up call. That wake up call was a reminder that I was climbing a mountain about 10x as tall as I thought it was.
I think about the rental mini van we pushed to SC Village and back, the practice in DC we caravanned to, the DC event we drove back to again, round trip drives to Vegas and the shitty team meetings plagued with frustration and bitching. Then there were the days and days of phone calls and emails and the struggle to keep a group of guys happy and satisfied with the toughest challenge they had all ever embarked on.
And what I realized from all of it was this: Nothing in my entire life could ever replace the satisfaction and the memories of 2009. Never in my life have I been so scared of failing, so overwhelmed with responsibility and stress, so behind the 8 ball, so rooted against, so responsible for so many other players well being – so god damned electrically alive.
Indianapolis Mutiny was the best thing that ever happened to me. My life will never be the same again because of this team. There is no greater feeling on Earth than taking a risk that everyone tells you won’t work and stubbornly following your dream until one day you stop and look in the mirror. I’m talking about that same mirror you were peering into soggy eyed one year earlier when the going got real tough and you considered quitting the game that was your life. Instead, you’re half in the bag and staring in the mirror of the mens’ bathroom at the VooDoo Lounge in Las Vegas. This is of course just before you stroll back out on the roof to get even more hyphy with the hardest group of motherfuckers you ever knew.

This is only the beginning.

I’m updating this site several months after the event (shame on me) so it is difficult for me to recall the exact details of which prelim games we won and which ones we lost. I do however know that we made the cut for the third event in a row. This was huge for us. It gave us all a solid taste of consistency and accomplishment. That then transformed into confidence.
One huge component of our success in Las Vegas was how well we laned the opposing teams we played. We were consistently laning 1 to 2 bodies a game. Getting those kills off of the break gives our style of play a lot of momentum. Boys start tasting blood early on and the feast begins right out of the gate.







The Ohau Open was way more than just one single paintball tournament. It was actually a series of several different events. There was a Military Simulation Target Shoot, sponsored by Tiberius Arms, along with a 3 man tournament and 5 man tournament with both pump and semi-auto divisions.
The next event was the 5 man. Since at the time we were probably the poorest team in paintball, there was only three of us that ended up making it out to the event. This meant for us to play and win the 5 man we were going to have to make some last minute pick-ups on the spot. We ended up picking up a super talented local Hawaii kid named Tyler Hanlin along with LJ from Dynasty. These were nice additions to the team for sure.
we had on our roster. Still though, the 5 man would prove to be anything but a cake walk. I believe we ended up going undefeated in the prelims, but when the Finals came around to play for 1st and 2nd the heat was turned up significantly. We came out and lost our first game of a best of three to a local team called Hawaii Exodus. This was a local team packed full of young and hungry stunners who were ready to take us down in their backyard. We answered back the second game winning 5 alive in about 2 minutes quietly reminding them that the event wasn’t quite over just yet. The third game went our way as well, and before we knew it we were 2 events deep in 1st place.
The event closed on Sunday with a 3 man tournament. We showed up with a squad of just Mutiny players for this one. The competition was once again all local teams, and once again they showed up to fight. We ended up losing several games in the prelims. This in turn lead to Tholey, Shane and myself bickering back and forth at one another in the pits like a bunch of sisters. However, our success prevailed and we ended up taking home 1st place in the 3 man event as well. 
































